Thursday, March 3, 2016

Should I take back my wife?


She is not who I thought she was. When I first me her she was literally everything I ever wanted and I fell for her I was a young and I knew I fell for a young single mom. She said she finished high school but never went to college and chose to raise her kid I felt something was up but never looked into it.

I eventually married her and we had three kids but over time she started acting weird. I hired a PI and I learned after having her investigated she has not only been living a double life working in a unusual profession something called a dominatrix but she has also lied about her past.

She didn't grow up in a regular suburban family but with a foster home who according to the investigator is basically a nightmare apparently she ran away from this foster home after getting pregnant at the age of 15 and spent years living out of motels. According to this guy I hired she'd lie about her age and marry guys for their cash and then divorce them. Apparently she's quite the grifter or was.

I confronted her we fought and I threw her out.

It's not just the lies and secrets she's clearly not as stable as I thought. She's like a party girl or sex addict obsessed with being the perfect step-ford wife. From what I've learned about the real her is she's always been obsessed with becoming the perfect wife with the perfect family but hates herself for wanting to be free and consequently can't reconcile these two sides of herself.

I love her but I don't know if i should take her back.
Added (1). From what she's told me I was just a mark then she started to care for me. Apparently she lived the double life because I'm very conservative(or as she calls it vanilla) and she's very kinky. She said she wanted my money in the beginning but grew to care for me. She says before I met her she learned everything I liked so she'd be my dream girl and felt so guilty she devouted all her time into being my dream girl and was afraid I won't like the real her.
Added (2). I'm trying to get to know the real her but we're polar opposites she's more blunt condescending and rude. For example we have this neighbor and when we were leaving she said to her friend "Next time make sure your pig husband doesn't touch my ***. " I then later found out that our neighbor has over the years been making unwanted advances on her even coming close to assaulting her but she never told me because that would worry me and make me unhappy.
Added (3). She's literally all about making me and our kids happy and just doesn't care about herself and it's scary like she doesn't get how big of a deal it is. When I asked why she never told me she said "It's no big deal it happened all the time when I was a kid I learned to deal with it so it doesn't bother me. All I want is to be perfect for you."

She's afraid of failing me if she thinks she's failed as a wife she'll go on a suicidal rant. I want to help but I think she shouldn't be around the kids.

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